Fern Tiano

Intro “You wanna get by, you gotta learn to live.” <••••> Sometimes, I get this feeling, like I’m gliding on ice. I don’t know if time just feels like it’s going fast or if I’m just zoned out for most of it, but…I don’t know, it kinda feels good. In a way, it makes the days easier to live through. Work isn’t so long, class doesn’t feel like it runs so late, my studies feel like a blur. I can remember it all, to some extent. My dad said it was because I had no one around me to keep me running instead of trying to fly. He says, when you try to fly, that’s when you fall flat. I say, let’s fly. <••••> So, there I was, figuratively, flying, physically, well, let’s face the facts, I was a shell of myself. I was there, but my mind wasn’t. It wasn’t like there was anything wrong with me, I was just…dreaming. Sometimes, you achieve your dreams, you accomplish what you set out to do. Other times…well, reality hits you hard. The biggest thing is that I was just dreaming. I didn’t do anything, just dreamt. That was probably my biggest mistake at the time. But, hey, God has his own way, I guess. So, yeah, I got smacked real heard by reality. Pulled me out of my daze, set me on my feet because if I didn’t start running again, I was sure to fall hard and fast. Well, I started running, but I still fell, hard and fast. I almost tripped over my own feet when I saw her, just sitting down at a table in a coffee shop. Beautiful didn’t even begin to describe her. My rapidly spinning world came to a sudden stop in an instant. Now I’ve got a shirt with a big coffee stain on it because I couldn’t take my eyes off her. But, I’m also sitting here with a little piece of notebook paper, crumpled and torn where I was less than careless with it. I dialed the number hours ago, but I haven’t been able to make myself press the call button. What do you do when something enters your field of view so strongly that your entire world is shaken? God, I wish I knew.