Announcement

so....., im gonna be real with yall., i have d3pr3ssi0n and su1c1da1 th0ughts, and no one knows that, and i felt safer comin’ to all of you about it, because, i can't admit it to my family and friends, why you may be wondering?, i hate having everyone put me as the center of attention, i feel pressured and horrible in the spotlight to be honest., also i have absolutely no good things about myself, I'm w3ak and ugly, my legs are fat, and i have very little self love, some friends openly talk about my appearance infrunt of me and other friends, why?, I'm not sure, i have horrible taste in frineds i guess, to be honest, I am horrible with make up and hair, my friend, let's call her "A", literally talked about my appearance and hair infrunt of me and i can't stand up for myself and because of that i can rarely say no to people because i feel like a j3rk, and A’s mother was sm0king and dr1nk1ng while A was in her w0mb causing A to be short and have health problems, SO I CAN'T SAY NO TO HER BECAUSE SHE IS TECHNICALLY DIS4BL3D AND I CAN'T SAY NO TO DIS4BL3D PEOPLE, AND SHE USES IT AGAINST ME, I'VE BEEN TRYING TO GET MYSELF TO STOP BEING FRIENDS BUT SHE DRAGS UP THIS SOB STORY AND I BECOME FRIENDS AGAIN NO MATTER HOW HORRIBLE SHE MAKES ME FEEL ABOUT MYSELF, so yeah, also found out im lesbian, don't worry my family is fine with that. edit: Jokes on d34th and d3pr3ssi0n i haven't committed su1cid3..., yet, we'll see., anyways found out my crush likes me back, maybe something to live for? :/