schoollife
Xavier Padilla.

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๐ธ โฆโ ๐'๐ถ ๐ช ๐ฏ๐พ๐ฌ๐ด, ๐๐ฑ๐ ๐๐ธ๐พ๐ต๐ญ ๐๐ธ๐พ ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฎ๐ท ๐ฝ๐ช๐ต๐ด ๐ฝ๐ธ ๐ถ๐ฎ? ๐๐ท๐ญ ๐ฝ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ผ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ต๐ถ, ๐ฒ๐ผ ๐ณ๐พ๐ผ๐ฝ ๐ช ๐ฏ๐พ๐ฌ๐ด๐ฒ๐ท๐ฐ ๐ฝ๐ป๐ช๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ญ๐ โ... ๐ธ
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[ hopeless romantic x taken ]
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โ๐พ ๐ญ๐ธ๐ท'๐ฝ ๐ด๐ท๐ธ๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐ท๐ช๐ถ๐ฎ, ๐ซ๐พ๐ฝ ๐ ๐ต๐ธ๐ฟ๐ฎ ๐พ ๐ช๐ท๐๐๐ช๐.. โ
I think I'm in love with the stars in the sky. It's a pathetic kind of love, to be infatuated with someone so far away from the world that you're in. My heart swells between the cracks of my ribcage, aching for you. These feelings I have, they crave fulfillment, an escape from my solemn mind. I guess I just didn't know how else to give them that.
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I'm a coward, I know. I don't expect you or anyone else to try and hide that. Maybe I'm naive, too, to think you might actually bear any sliver of endearment for me. You'd have to acknowledge my existence for that. Those moments that I kick my pencil to the ground, and roll it to you with the heel of my footโฆ you pick it up and, for just a moment, our eyes meet. That's enough, I'd think to myself. That's enough for you to haunt my dreams for the rest of my life.
โ ๐ถ๐ช๐ญ๐ฎ ๐พ ๐ฝ๐๐ธ ๐ฌ๐ช๐ผ๐ผ๐ฎ๐ฝ๐ฝ๐ฎ๐ผ, ๐ท๐ธ๐ ๐ฒ ๐๐ฒ๐ผ๐ฑ, ๐พ ๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ฎ ๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ด๐ฒ๐ท๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ฎ๐ช๐ญ !!! โ
Lately, I've been staying for ten minutes after the final bell rings, silently listening to the footsteps in the hall, until they fade away with the voices. Folded papers that I slip into your locker, the corners bleeding with ink. Poetryโ or the closest thing to it. It's more like a written embodiment of my love for you, messy and entangled like bones and flesh, yet somehow harmonizing together.
I watch from afar, hiding in the crowd, as your eyes drift over the words I etched into it. I don't think you've told anyone. I don't know how I would live with myself if anyone knew. Especially not him.
โ ..๐ซ๐ป๐ฎ๐ช๐ด ๐พ๐น ๐๐ฒ๐ฝ๐ฑ ๐๐ป ๐ซ๐ฏ, ๐ฝ๐ช๐ด๐ฎ ๐ช ๐ป๐ฒ๐ญ๐ฎ ๐๐ฒ๐ฝ๐ฑ ๐ถ๐ฎ โ
He's your boyfriend, after all. But every time he walks byโฆ your hand intertwined with hisโฆ I think I just want to be him, not someone who lurks in his shadow.
I'd sacrifice anything just for you to notice me instead.
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๐๐๐ฝ๐ป๐ช ;
6โ3โ, 18, local emo. ๐