< Zander >

I've only eaten once in 3 days. why am I seeing no difference? 🥹 I hate my body so much that I'll starve myself until death. because then I'd at least die skinny. okay, maybe not literally, but I want to 🫤 I'm wondering if this is why I'm feeling so tired and weak, but I'm not sure! probably. but I'll do whatever it takes to feel a bit better about myself 💗 I'm not necessarily fat, but feel it. every time I look down, I just can't help but feel like I'm a pig. and I feel so selfish for thinking about myself this way, because I know people who let's say a bit bigger than me. I will NEVER judge other people's sizes! only my own 🥲 I think chubby girls are so cute! I get a day off school today because I'm too unwell to attend. I have a doctor's appointment today. does anyone have any tips on how to get skinnier?? I'm not eating. that's one. but what else? I could try go on walks, but at this moment, I don't think I'm physically able to do so 🫩

what are your guys f4vourite countries? I'm a huge geography n3rd. my favourite countries from each continent are: Asia: Mongolia Australia(Oceania): New Zealand, of course! South America: Uruguay North America: Barbados(the name...🍃iykyk) Europe: Slovakia, Greece, and The Netherlands Africa: 🇳🇪(it's not just because of the name, I swear 😓 I'm just interested in this country. I don't know how true this is since school lies to me a lot, but I'm pretty sure French USED to be the official language in 🇳🇪)

guys I promise a lot of you on here(NOT ALL!!) which claim to be tomboys will probably change your mind. this post isn't targeted to every tomboy, and this isn't me trying to force you to act feminine, but I also had a tomboy phase!(SO EMBARRASSING OGZOGDGD)... I was all like "I hate pink... I hate makeup... I hate dresses". but look at my account now 😭 and it's not just me. most girls I know and a LOT(over 10,000 comments on ONE tiktok) also experienced this phase. I was like "I will NEVER change my mind, I hate pink". most girls hate the colour pink because it's so forced upon them, but here is a random fact! did you know that pink used to be the colour that was associated with boys, and blue was associated with girls? "pink" is actually a more recent colour, and used to only be classed as "light red". boys wear pink, girls with blue. it was like that until the mid-20th century. red was a strong colour. also, men used to wear "skirts"! kind of. and a lot still do. kind of. I'm assuming you've already heard of kilts and stuff! but skirts were originally created for both genders to wear, not just women. mem started wearing pants because it was easier for horse riding(I'm pretty sure?). so yeah, the strongest man used to wear pink skirts, I bet 😇 reminder: I DO NOT MEAN ALL WOMEN HAVE TO OR WILL BECOME FEMININE!! tomboys are very handsome/pretty/amazing/beautiful/cute/perfect too!

I felt so weak today that I slept all day 🫤 I still feel very weak. I went to school yesterday. my school is 2 hours long. not as bad as most schools, I know. I had 2 hours sleep 🫩 it's 5:40 in the morning here while I'm writing this, and I have to go to school at 9. I wake up at 7 to bathe, do my makeup, my hair, and help my little brother get ready for kindergarten. I actually feel so weak, I don't think I can go to school. I tried walking to the kitchen to get some water which is not even 15 seconds away from my room, and I felt like I was going to pass out. I just sat on the kitchen floor for like 2 minutes, and then go back up to my room. I slept after school yesterday, but I still feel so tired. and well I took a bath, so much of my hair fell out. I wasn't feeling very happy about that. a LOT of my hair is falling out recently. I don't know why. my head hurts so bad every time I try to walk. and it's not iron deficiency, I don't think. I don't feel the static thing. it doesn't feel the same at all. I feel so sick, and I don't know what to do. I really don't think I can do school today.

let this be your reminder to NOT use too much skin moisturiser! my makeup will not stay on.

what's your favourite colour? 💗 ❤️ red 🧡 orange 💛 yellow 💚 green 🩵 blue 💙 indigo 💜 purple 🩷 pink 🤎 brown

whether I'm eating or not eating, I feel terrible 🫩 food: 😭 no food: 😭

this pin is literally so cool 🫢 so detailed for a tiny pin

okay, so since I just made a post about therians, I want to express more of my opinions people probably would get upset over 😬 this one is: those posts like "help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me", or "I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay ", etc are just soo corny and a cry for attention. obviously I'm talking about the repetitive text, not venting in general. I vent. but this is just attention seeking 💔 speaking normally, not like a corny overused horror game dialogue 😬 I can't take you seriously when you go this, because you seem like a 7 year old gacha kid 🫩

I still feel so weak 🫩 I was literally walking into school with my dad(I know I'm too old for this, but I have my reasons 😓), but before I could get in class, I started crying to my dad because of how heavy my body felt, and how badly my head hurt. he drove me back home and I slept again for over half the day 🫤 why do I feel so weak 💔