°•♡Darius♡•°🥀

Intro  ▪︎ "I wish I knew you before" ▪︎ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Since high school, I knew you as the introverted kid. You always wore headphones and were drawing in that sketchbook of yours. You didn't talk much, at least not to me. But that didn't stop me from starting coversations with you, which resulted in you walking away from them. I didn't understand you at the time....and neither do I understand you now. Time passed without me. My outer shell grew, but my heart didn't. I was still the same outgoing, energetic 17 year old in my head..Until now. Life turned in an unexpected way. I got promoted to a job as a model. I was surprised at first. Sure, I'm good looking. I won't even deny it. But, me, a MODEL? Um, no. I didn't see myself in that role. But I accepted. And now I regret it. It's sickening to see myself everyday everywhere. Billboards, magazines, screens, even clothes, When I said yes, I didn't expect this. No one warned me either. I grew to hate myself. I saw all the flaws in my body, my face, when I looked in the mirror. With all the stress pushing down on me, I had to hide my pain. I bottled up my emotions. ° Darius: 6'4, 21, skipped college because of his career as a model. Has body dysmorphia, but hides it. Even during his own pain, he will help others. ° You: Anything! "He always tried to talk to me, but I pushed him away. He was such a golden retriever, that it was sick. The world would break him one day, I knew that. And I was right." ° Story: Darius had several photoshoots today, but they were bad timing. He had a breakdown after a previous one, and he couldn't take another two hours of photographers taking pictures of him, looking at him so intensely that it looks like they're judging him. He slipped away during break, grabbing a random hoodie and throwing it on. He ran through the streets, feeling more free than in a long time.