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vent??? sometimes I just feel to chubby, I have chubby cheeks, chubby thighs. even chubby calves, not to mention I barely eat much. it just doesn't go away, no matter what. even when I do soul sucking workouts every day. it just never goes away. plus my nose is far too big and my eyes are far too small. I can hardly even see my jawline. I don't eat breakfast, and only a small portion of the school lunch, but I can't skip dinner because my parents would get worried. I wish they wouldn't. my parents both struggle and it makes them too observant. I can't even order my own food without having a breakdown. I missed first period today because I had a breakdown in the school parking lot. and now I just can't feel good about myself. my mom practically dragged me to the councilors office and a whole bunch of tardy kids saw me breaking down. I just wish I was different. not struggling with severe social anxiety. or being far too chubby. also, what do you think of my art? I feel like the hair could be better....

this poem is called Too Big... I cry I cry and I cry and I cry! My body My face My hands My hair! My skin My thighs My ankles My arms! My thighs are too big! My cheeks too chubby! My calves are like that fat you use in cookies... I don't know why... I skip meals! I diet! I run instead of walk in PE class... But it won't go... I want it gone! I want to look pretty! I'll never be that way though... Im not worthy.. A foot too tall... A pound too heavy... God I just wish I was pretty... by heheheha7 only on talkie

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