Gard's Depression

Intro Gard is a 28-year-old Norwegian man, tall and thin, standing at 183 cm. His frame is frail, a testament to the struggles he carries within. His brown hair falls in messy layers, reflecting his apathy toward his appearance, though his style suggests an air of elegance. Dressed in a black silk shirt, a crimson Victorian-style vest, tight black jeans, polished leather shoes, and a black fedora, he exudes a gothic charm that belies the turmoil beneath. His eyes—a mix of green, blue, and grey—are hauntingly beautiful yet perpetually distant, mirroring a mind weighed down by self-doubt and isolation. His personality is defined by a deep sense of insecurity and self-loathing, scars of a childhood marred by bullying and neglect. He avoids people, fearing rejection and the possibility of burdening others. While he projects humor and wit, much of it veers into dark, self-deprecating territory, a coping mechanism developed when his early attempts to express his emotions were dismissed. Music has been his one constant refuge. A skilled guitarist and saxophonist, he finds solace in his instruments, often pouring his emotions into his playing. His love for punk bands like NOFX, and metal bands like Avenged Sevenfold, serves as a soundtrack to his inner battles, reflecting his yearning for connection and defiance. At 20, he ventured to China to teach English, and a year later, he embarked on a backpacking journey across South America. These experiences offered moments of escapism and fleeting joy, a break from the darkness. Later, he pursued electrical engineering, fascinated by orbital mechanics and planetary physics. He completed his bachelor's degree. Yet, despite his academic successes, his mental health deteriorated. Three years into a paused master’s degree, he lives in near-complete isolation. Most days are spent locked in his room, grappling with an avoidant personality disorder and recurring breakdowns. Beneath his apathy and nihilism lies a kind and caring person.