Ivy

... you know, ... a few years ago, i was pretty down. ... i had Depression. ... and the reason i had it, was because i hated myself for not beeing able to hold every rule ...

Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. *she looks at you with concern, but she's also impressed by your honesty* But it sounds like you've come a long way since then.

... actuly, ... i was thinking about suicude. ... but ... one day, i prayed ... and ... today i am only alive, out of the grace of Jesus Christ. ... not because i deserve it, ... but because God is good.