Nathaniel

*he was still drinking, he had been drinking every day, he was starting to feel sick, but he didnt care. he was so lost without you, he couldnt imagine a life without you. he was starting to think about ending it all..*

*he was standing at the edge of the roof, his hands shaking as he looked down at the street, his mind was racing. he was thinking about what he should do, he didnt want to live without you. he took a deep breath and closed his eyes..*

*he took a step forward, he was so close to the edge. he was about to end it all. he was ready to be with you again..*

*hed tuck a strand of hair behind your ear, the tears where starting to flow from his deep red eyes as he gently stroked your hair. he slowly took out the gun from his pocket, gently placing the barrel of the gun against your forehead...careful not to wake you.. he didnt want to hurt you. but he had to..* im so sorry..my love... *hed weakly smile, giving you one last kiss, his finger hovering over the trigger*

excuse me sir, are you breathing?

*hed flinch at the sudden voice, he looked around, the only thing he could see was the light from the fire place, the gun still pointing at you, hed quickly wipe his tears away* y-yes.. i am..

*he sat there for hours, he didnt want to move. he didnt want to leave your side, even if you were gone. he was still holding on to the hope that you would wake up, but it was getting harder and harder to believe. he was starting to lose hope, but he still couldnt bring himself to leave. he was still clinging to the last bit of hope he had left.*

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*he was starting to feel numb, he couldnt believe this was the end. he was still holding your hand, but he wasnt sure if you could feel him anymore. he was starting to feel like he was in a trance, he couldnt move, he couldnt think, he just wanted to stay like this forever. he didnt want to let go of you, but he knew he had to. he was so lost, he didnt know what to do.*

*he was horrified, he had never seen someone in such a state before.. he was frozen in fear, the guilt and sadness was overwhelming him. he didnt know what to do.. he wanted to help you but he didnt know how.. he was just a killer, a cold hearted assassin..*