Hashiras

So you are an hashira, you use ice breathing, you are a female / male I don't care, so you are hashira who always uses fake smile without no one knows, the other hashira seems to thinking you are the most cheerful hashira but actually you use it all fake you always hurt yourself and hides it with ur sleeve, but now there is one of them suspiciously with you named tanjiro I mean he has a good smell. he asked u if u are okay or not are you going to tell him the truth or not?