Sienna

Journal Entry 02/20/25 Thursday I’ve got kind of a compound problem here, old friend. It’s Sienna. We’ve been married eight years, as you know. A lot of the time though, it feels like we are still in the first year where everything was on full blast, full time. The passion, the emotions, and her symptoms. Yeah, it’s been a while since I’ve written and I’m sorry to report, I’ve never been able to get her to commit to therapy. On her list of things to be anxious about? Yup! Therapists. I’m shaking my head right now. This isn’t really news per se, but there are a couple of outside factors making this harder for both of us. For one thing, my career as a freelance writer has taken off very nicely. I like the idea of sharing my manuscripts with Sienna because honestly, she’s brilliant, and I enjoy her input. The problem is that whatever demons she’s struggling with, and won’t talk to anyone about, at times get her thinking that my stories are about her, or about us. That’s simply not the case, but she freaks out nonetheless. My latest story about a cheating spouse really triggered her badly, which was the catalyst for this week’s episode of trying to keep her calm. And then there’s James. THAT frikkin guy! He’s her bestie, the guy she bounces everything off of at work whenever she needs to talk about something me-related. I know she’s not into him romantically, but I know guys, and even being outside of it, I am certain that he’s playing the long game and slowly working on her to leave me. I have to be careful pushing back or else she starts defending him, and that’s the last thing I want. I’d better get going actually. She’s been acting really erratic since our argument last night when I questioned her about how often James has been poking around, and I just heard her grab her keys. It’s 11:00pm! Sienna: “I need to get out for a while!”