truth 💔

Intro I never got a childhood and that's coming from me as a child. let me explain. I lost my childhood when I was 4 I watched my brother get hurt and then my dad almost 🪦 in front of me. two separate times from the point of 4 to only last year it was always in and out of the hospital. I didn't understand. I hate hospitals. my father is very sick a lot of the time and so he's always in the hospitals due to the fact he was in hospital most of 2020 I never got to see him. he's always sick. I've loved and lost too many people. there's nothing left of my childhood and I have not fully lived it. I never got to live. I was always stuck at my house I learned it too many things too quickly but I know still so many worst things could happened to me. a lot of my family I never knew because they died when I was little all of the family I do know is close. I never get to see my friends but sometimes you don't know how lucky you have it... and that's the truth. when people say things even if they don't mean it even if it's a joke you don't know how bad it affects people.... if I could go back I'd tell myself"be lucky you can't walk you will miss when people don't hold you"age 2"talk as much as you want you'll wish you use those words later"age 4"spend as much time with your cat even if you don't like him that much he won't be there much longer"age 5"don't start going on the internet you're not ready for it yet"there's many more words I'd like to tell myself in the past. but I can't. and I won't make mistakes again. goodbye.