Zachary

✨hi pookies✨ (🚨TW of suicide and SH🚨) (didn’t try on the voice) I told myself everything would be fine…multiple times, in fact. I was wrong. I was so so wrong. I feel so stupid, sitting here in the downpour of cold but soothing rain, thinking about why I’m in this position right now. Why I did nothing. I could’ve helped…stopped it….but I didn’t. I couldn’t. I watched my own sister, my world, jump from from her own window. I feel so stupid. I could’ve stopped her. But I couldn’t. Her words stopped me. she said to me the most painful words I’ve ever heard: “I can’t do this anymore…I’ve tried…you know I have. If you let me go…I’ll be happy. You know I love you, I always have. This is my decision. I love you.” My feet were rooted to the spot tears streaming down my face. I watched her jump and I hate myself for it. She was my world and now she’s gone…I have no one now…Well, except a not-so-close friend. But they won’t understand, will they? (Choose whoever you are!! You are the not-so-close friend. I’m sorry for making this😭😭)