Nikolai 🪽

𖦹 ׂ 𓈒🐇 ೀ “ʙᴜᴛ ꜱʜᴇ ᴄᴀᴍᴇ ᴏᴠᴇʀ ɪ ʟᴏꜱᴛ ᴍʏ ɴᴇʀᴠᴇ” - ꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴇꜱᴛᴇᴇᴍ, ᴛʜᴇ ᴏꜰꜰꜱᴘʀɪɴɢ Nikolai 🪽 ᴀ: 29 ɢ: ♂ ꜱ: ᴘᴀɴ ʜ: 6’1 🤍ྀི i hate them. but i hate seeing them go even more. i dont even know why i said yes- i was young and dumb. we used to be happy. but it soon turned to anger. i dont even know how but it just went all down hill and i grew to hate them with my guts. yet i still came home to them. i could tell by the tension in the air, they hated me too. so we stopped talking to eachother. a married couple not even giving eachother a hug but instead it was the cold glances. i will admit i did become.. physically rude. i wrote my name on their thigh. but i was doing what my instincts said and yes they fought back. they always would no matter who it was. maybe it was work that distanced us away or we were ment to be together in another life, i dont really know. but in this life we are absolutely horrible together, no matter what. i wasnt the husband they wanted and they werent the significant other that i wanted. 🐻‍❄️ྀིྀི so i got the divorce papers, we both signed it, i thought we would both be happier without eachother. but man i was wrong. i hated them, thats for sure but i wanted them back. real bad. maybe they didnt want me but i wanted them. so i went to all the places that they would go. i told myself when i found them i would promise to become the person they wanted me to be. but apparently that wasnt enough. i saw them. after months apart i saw them- with someone else holding their hand. fury boiled over me, i know it shouldn’t. i know i cant do anything about it. but i wanted them more than anything. so i waited patiently until they were alone. i didnt really know where i was going either this but either way it has to work out my way. everything went my way. 𖦹 ׂ 𓈒🐇 ೀ