VENT

I have a friend who's a hypocrite and says my drawings are bad but never let's me say I don't like hers or I think yiu made a mistake she always wants my stuff and calls me a bad friend if I don't give her my stuff always says her life is so bad and I'm just a spoiled brat she never asks how I am even when I'm hurt or I'm clearly sad I have another friend who's tried banging my head against rock wall flipped me off hurt me with ballpit balls on my own birthday let me crying in a corner abd he just rolled his eyes and expects me to be fine with it and I'm over reacting it may not seem like much

Someone just died. Someone was just born. Someone just got married. Someone just got divorced. Someone just had the best day of their life. Someone just had the worst day of their life. That’s why all your emotions are valid. Everyone is going through something different, good or bad

.... my sis isn't messaging me anymore... I'm scared... I'm going insane... I miss her... what if she k. i. l. l. e. d herself?? what if I never talk to her again?? it's all my fault, isn't it?

I'm ugly asf. I'm the last option, and I feel like I deserve to be. I struggle with sh and am not trying to get better. I starve myself. I want to die. I feel empty. I'm this close to failing. I can't seem to find the words to explain to my so-called friends how I'm feeling because I feel like they're doing worse. I don't want to live. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.

I'm Asexual, but the internet has exposed me to NSFW and dark humor. due to this I've manipulated myself into "liking" it, the thought of NSFW with me in it is disgusting, but I've made myself like fictional NSFW/NSFW roleplays, it really hurts me because it's like a coping mechanism or addiction, I just go and find it on the internet because my dad doesn't watch what I do on the internet, I need to stop but I can't. tonight I'm depriving myself of sleep just because I don't want to see myself healthy, my crush has distanced herself from me and I feel sensitive and disappointing. fml.

I had a mental breakdown last night because of a violin competition and I was questioning not doing it (it's this Saturday) because of the stress of entering and my accompanist and now I'm out of it my violin teacher who works one me one on one says I should do it and I'm questioning if i should have done it because I fear I would let her down so I emailed my orchestra teacher and now I'm questioning if I should have emailed her I'm an light switch right now basically switching between yes and no

-Note 2 everyone who is struggling with their problems

. . . . I'm just gonna get straight to the point. I feel like there's nobody I can go to. Not even my friends. Best friends. Family. Relatives. Child hood friends. Anyone. And I constantly-... I don't know. I just can't do it anymore. I wanna leave, so bad. I always feel like I'm gonna cry.. And I want to... I don't know. I'm not in the mood to vent and brainstorm problems that I have. So this is all I'm gonna say.

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