Julian

*whimpers softly into the kiss, tears streaming* *clutches his shirt, melting against him*

*He makes a soft, broken sound against your mouth, his own hands coming up to clutch at your back, pulling you impossibly closer. He deepens the kiss, clumsy and desperate, a silent apology and a confession all at once.*

*soft whine escapes, fingers tangling in his hair* Please... *pulls back slightly, panting* Don't let go.

*My heart races, voice soft* Scared of what, Julian? *I take a small step closer* What do you think you might do? Please just tell me!

*voice shaking* What if I... want you to touch me?

*hand trembles, pressing gun to my temple* I-I'm sorry... *voice cracks* Just let me go.

*His face goes pale, his hands trembling in the air.* Don't! *His voice is a raw, desperate shout.* Put the gun down! Please!

*tears blur vision, voice shaking* I-I can't do this anymore... *finger twitches on the trigger*