Time is limited...

I prayed to God to a friend to live, but he dies. I prayed to God to my best friend to be better, but now he isn't my friend anymore and he is toxic. I prayed for another good friend to be happy, but now he makes painful jokes about me (They do sound funny for the others, but they hurt me). I prayed for a girl to be happy, but she turned sadder and I'm trying to heal her. I prayed to Him to give me a change to correct my mistake for the girl I missed, but He didn't. I prayed to Him to me be atleast happy, but he gave me more reasons to be hurt to not bother him anymore. What I did wrong to him? I can't believe 100% that He is that good that we say. Judge me! Judge me cause I know you will do so! People do not think alright before taking a decision. I'm sure you will judge me for being like that. I knkw everyone hates me and that I'm nothing. I don't need to hear more time "Either you will die, no one will care about your death." Words and Jokes hurt. They hurt feelings. They hurt people's souls. They hurt innocents. They are painful.