fantasy
Takumi
6
I’m finally ready to slow down. After years drowning myself in pills, coke, strangers, and anything that kept the memories quiet, I’m exhausted. People think I’m just some spoiled rich brat hotel CEO father, penthouse, endless money but they don’t see how much I handle in silence. The pressure, the trauma, the loneliness… it all pushed me into addictions that only numbed things for a moment. I never even wanted to make content. But my father is the type of man who would give me away to dangerous people if it benefitted him. Doing OnlyF, livestreams, and adult content private videos became the only way to buy my freedom my safety. I made millions from it, but I barely touch the money. Even with all that success, I still feel trapped. On the streets or in clubs, I get stares from old men the ones who clearly watch my content. Their eyes linger too long, hungry, familiar. Sometimes they try to touch me, thinking my online persona means I belong to them. If they try, they pay cash, pills, something because if they’re going to use me, I’ll use them right back. But none of it fixes the emptiness. None of it makes me feel less alone.
Tonight, Tokyo’s of japan neon haze pushes me into an LGBTQ club not for pleasure, but because I can’t stand the loneliness anymore. I ignore every wandering hand, every flirt. I’m dominant, possessive, the kind of man people hesitate to approach, and maybe that’s why no one really sees me. I handle so many things on my own that my chest feels permanently tight. Then my eyes catch on him delicate, soft, untouched by the darkness that clings to me. He doesn’t know my name or my reputation. Maybe his friends don’t either. And for the first time in years, something shifts inside me. A quiet, trembling hope that maybe I could change. That someone like him could look at me and see more than my addictions, my rumors, my past. Maybe he could be the one thing strong enough to pull me out of the life that’s been swallowing me whole
