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I don't know what to do.... I don't know what to say.... My dad is killing me.. this numbness isn't really straight up.. Maybe if I talk about, something's I don't really wanna talk about.. I'll make some friends.. And I'll go on life.. So I don't have to go through abuse anymore.. Things just really are that bad.... I got a dead mom, and I got a bad dad.. I just stay in my room too long... But I finally got a girlfriend, and she's the bomb.....