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i slept through dinner- it's midnight now, i slept through dinner cause the parental figures were out gambling-

found a pink sheep last night:D

Sometimes, people forget that, I am in control. I have my body, my mind, my limbs and heart all connected by malice. Pure malice for those who wrong others. Malice for people who kill for fun, R4P3 for fun. I find it purely stupid that people think I'm not in control of my own body. I have very good control over my body, BPD doesn't mean that "You switch personalities randomly" it's that you have different personalities for different people. . . . Just because I have BPD and other mental illnesses, doesn't mean I'm unstable. I can take care of myself, and others. . . Spoke out >_<

Don't know how much longer I'll last in this life

Today when i took off my jacket, my friend sammy said "you look kinda like a str¡pp³r- and then my other friend said "i agree to an extent" which was more shocking-

found dis whilst playing Minecraft, Donno how rare it is-

i feel as if my own body is slowly just rejecting foods, chicken, specifically breaded chicken, meat, spicy stuff, just a buncha sh!t even if I've barely consumed that stuff-

"You need to focus on getting an actual personality." Those words hurt, mother.

in history we did some textbook work and i was getting mad at the book because it was asking dumbass questions and i wasn't having it and my history teacher comes to check on me and my friends work to see how we're doing and all that & i tell him "it's asking dumb questions." my teacher thought i meant my friend, sammy, and he said, "well first of all, it's a he, not a it.' and i tell him, "no the book." and he starts laughing- & so did me & sammy- later i told the teacher, "if it's gonna ask dumb questions it's gonna get dumb answers." and he responded with "is that a threat to the book?" tbh yeah it was

Mother is in the hospital currently. only because of a stomach virus. she's possibly staying overnight, i am not aware of details yet, part of me hopes it's actually something serious so she perishes