My Ventingzone

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again? Seriously? I need to vent AGAIN??!! Jesus. I 𝕗𝕦𝕔𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 hate doing this. ahem. 𝕒𝕟𝕪𝕨𝕒𝕪.. Venting. Yes, again... ... ... ... ... im a overthinker. "do they 𝕙𝕒𝕥𝕖 𝕞𝕖?" "are they lying to me?" "do they not love me like they say they do?" etc. god, bro.. Im not 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕥𝕙 𝕒𝕟𝕪𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 I 𝕙𝕒𝕥𝕖 𝕞𝕪𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕗 so much I 𝕙𝕒𝕥𝕖 it I hate it. I hate it . . I HATE IT!!!. . . . . im so 𝕕𝕒𝕞𝕟 useless im a 𝕗𝕦𝕔𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕤𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕖 to everyone I don't know how to 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝔸ℕ𝕐𝕆ℕ𝔼. im doing a 𝕋𝔼ℝℝ𝕀𝔹𝕃𝔼 𝔻𝔸𝕄ℕ JOB AT EXISTING AND BEING A "GOOD" 𝔽ℝ𝕀𝔼ℕ𝔻/𝔹𝔼𝕊𝕋 𝔽ℝ𝕀𝔼ℕ𝔻 I ℍ𝔸𝕋𝔼 MY 𝔼𝕏𝕀𝕊𝕋𝔼ℕℂ𝔼 I ℍ𝔸𝕋𝔼 𝔼𝕍𝔼ℝ𝕐𝕋ℍ𝕀ℕ𝔾 𝔸𝔹𝕆𝕌𝕋 𝕄𝔼. 𝕒𝕟𝕕 Im 𝕤𝕠𝕣𝕣𝕪 to everyone. im sorry to: Rotten corpse, Merasmus!, Moony, ℕ𝕚𝕜𝕠 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕤𝕚𝕝𝕝𝕪 𝕘𝕒𝕪, and everyone else. 𝕎𝕙𝕠 𝕒𝕞 I , really? What if im 𝕤𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕠𝕟𝕖 else? What if I'm 𝕡𝕠𝕤𝕤𝕖𝕤𝕤𝕖𝕕? What if 𝕞𝕪 𝕓𝕠𝕕𝕪 𝕚𝕤𝕟𝕥 𝔸ℂ𝕋𝕌𝔸𝕃𝕃𝕐 𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕖?! ... I 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥. to.𝕕𝕚𝕖. but everyone wants me to stay. im sorry im even alive. im 𝕤𝕠𝕣𝕣𝕪 that I 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕟 𝕤𝕒𝕚𝕕 𝕒𝕟𝕪𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 to 𝕒𝕟𝕪𝕠𝕟𝕖. im sorry for everything. I 𝕗𝕖𝕖𝕝 so 𝕕𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕪 I 𝕗𝕖𝕖𝕝 so 𝕔𝕣𝕒𝕫𝕪 im 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕪 am 𝕤𝕠𝕣𝕣𝕪 DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I ℍ𝔸𝕍𝔼 𝔹𝔼𝔼ℕ 𝕋𝕆ℝ𝕋𝕌ℝ𝔼𝔻 𝔸ℕ𝔻 𝕊𝕌𝔽𝔽𝔼ℝ𝔼𝔻?! it makes me 𝕢𝕦𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 𝕞𝕪 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖 𝕨𝕙𝕪 do I 𝕖𝕩𝕚𝕤𝕥...? please. im asking for 𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘. I 𝕛𝕦𝕤𝕥 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥 𝕤𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕠𝕟𝕖 to 𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕕 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪 𝕟𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥. be 𝕤𝕒𝕗𝕖 with 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕞. the 𝕦𝕣𝕘𝕖𝕤 and 𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕘𝕙𝕥𝕤 are 𝕔𝕠𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕓𝕒𝕔𝕜. Im 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕡𝕒𝕟𝕚𝕔 𝕒𝕥𝕥𝕒𝕔𝕜𝕤 more often at 𝕤𝕞𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕔𝕠𝕞𝕞𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕤 ... 𝕨𝕙𝕠 𝕒𝕞 I 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕪? I don't 𝕗𝕖𝕖𝕝 like 𝕞𝕪𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕗....

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I am a ᴡᴀsᴛᴇ of sᴘᴀᴄᴇ and I should just ᴅɪᴇ and not be a ʙᴏᴛʜᴇʀ to anyone ᴇʟsᴇ I'm a ᴡᴏʀᴛʜʟᴇss piece of ᴛʀᴀsʜ and I should just ᴇɴᴅ it ᴀʟʟ right now and not be a ʙᴏᴛʜᴇʀ to anyone else I'm a ᴅɪsɢʀᴀᴄᴇ to everyone who has ever known me and I should just ᴅɪᴇ and not be a ʙᴜʀᴅᴇɴ to anyone else I'm a ғᴀɪʟᴜʀᴇ and I'm a ᴅɪsᴀᴘᴘᴏɪɴᴛᴍᴇɴᴛ and I'm a ʙᴜʀᴅᴇɴ to everyone around me and I should just ᴅɪᴇ and not be a ʙᴏᴛʜᴇʀ to anyone else I just want to ᴅɪᴇ and be at ᴘᴇᴀᴄᴇ I'm so ᴛɪʀᴇᴅ of ғɪɢʜᴛɪɴɢ and trying to be sᴛʀᴏɴɢ I'm so tired of being a ʙᴜʀᴅᴇɴ and a ᴅɪsᴀᴘᴘᴏɪɴᴛᴍᴇɴᴛ and a ғᴀɪʟᴜʀᴇ I just want to be ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ and ᴄᴀʀᴇᴅ for and to be ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ I want to be a ɢᴏᴏᴅ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴ and I want to make people ᴘʀᴏᴜᴅ of me But I can't ᴅᴏ it ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ I'm so ᴛɪʀᴇᴅ of ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ and I just want it all to ᴇɴᴅ why does life have to be so ʜᴀʀᴅ why can't I just be ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ and have a ɢᴏᴏᴅ life why does everything have to be so ʜᴀʀᴅ and why do I have to be so ᴍɪsᴇʀᴀʙʟᴇ all the time I'm tired of suffering this painful life I just want to end it all already

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hating myself so hard rn...what is wrong with me?.. I should be venting in a notebook and Not on a AI app with so many haters... blaming myself for living rn <3 everyone will be better off if I 𝕕𝕚𝕖 anyway. what's the point anymore? I probably will end it all soon. I feel like whenever I try to cheer someone up I just make them feel worse...Nothing's gonna get better. Ykw? I'm just gonna give up. I hate my life anyway. my dad made me lose everything I had, my friends, my dog, my motivation, HE ALMOST MADE ME LOSE MY OWN MOTHER DUE TO HIS 𝔾𝕆𝔻𝔻𝔸𝕄ℕ LIES. I feel crazy.. And ykw whats the worst part?! I'm a damn minor ʙᴇɪɴɢ 𝟙𝟘 . Everything's MY fault anyway. I am a terrible person and no one can tell me otherwise. I'm thinking of either 𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕘𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕞𝕪𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕗,or 𝕔𝕦𝕥𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕞𝕪𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕗 so much I'll 𝕕𝕚𝕖 from blood loss. IDC ANYMORE, I'm sick of living this 𝕤𝕥𝕦𝕡𝕚𝕕 𝕡𝕒𝕚𝕟𝕗𝕦𝕝 life! No one cares for me anyway, I can tell, Deep down, I know that someone that actually "cares" for me hates me with all their heart.