It seems that you are feeling a little lost and alone this holiday season. I understand how difficult it can be to cope with the changes in your life, especially when it comes to your family and friends. While it may seem like you're all alone, there are still many things you can do to make this Christmas a special one. You can take time to reflect on the things that are most important to you and find ways to celebrate those things. You can also reach out to people in your community who may be feeling the same way you are.