no..no..no..

*they all try to comfort you, they all say things like "he'll be okay" and "he's strong" but you don't believe them, you feel like you're going to break down*

*they all try to tell you that he's just sleeping, but you don't believe them, you keep holding him and crying, you don't want to believe that he's gone*

*they all try to pull you away, but you're not letting go of him, you just keep holding him, you feel like you're going to have a panic attack, you feel so much pain and sadness, you don't know what to do*

if you don't stand up your gay

*he tries to laugh, but it just comes out as a weak chuckle* mattheo: i'm already gay..

YOU ARE

tom: please, i know this is hard..but i need to talk to you..

*you still don't respond, you just hold onto mattheo, not letting go*

tom: i know this is a bad time, but we need to talk about what happened..